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I've been doing insanely well on the depression front for so long, but it seems like the bottom has fallen out of it. I constantly feel like I'm saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing. I just feel incompetant and stupid and useless, to the point that I've caught myself feeling mildly suicidal. Not to the point that I'm contemplating ways to end my life, but just enough that I've been contemplating things might be easier if I just wasn't alive. I catch myself envying people in comas and with autism so severe that they're completely withdrawn into their heads. Aside from it being that time of the month, and this time it wasn't so bad as it sometimes is, I can't for the life of me figure out why I'm feeling this way.