Sorry I've been quiet lately

I'd post something happy and interesting, but I'm afraid right now, I'm so emotionally drained all I can feel is pain right now. The past two days have been hellish and the things that usually cheer me up aren't working. I just wish it didn't hurt to be me right now, and I just wish people -- at home, at work, etc. -- would stop asking me to do things for them when I feel like I need someone to do something for me. I just wish someone would surprise me with something, anything, even something tiny, to let me know that my presence in the universe matters in and of itself, and not for what I can do for other people, that someone would say the right thing that would break this cycle of despair that I seem stuck in. I'm in so much pain, I'm afraid to ask, for fear of being considered too demanding...

Didn't surprise me...

http://www.helloquizzy.com/results/the-attachment-style-test/?fromCGI=1&var_Anxiety=59&var_Avoidance=64

Maybe it's my current state of mind, but this result hurts...