I thought I was past all this...

[matrixrefugee]

By some trick -- probably an overload from those wretched Laurell K. Hamilton novels I was reading -- my libido had gone into hiding and I was thankfully rid of it for a whole six months. Not that it was causing me trouble for a while before that, but it seemed to have diminished over time before practically vanishing.

Well, it's back, and as before, I have no outlet for these feelings. Doesn;t help that I've been chatting informally with a likable, slightly wicked but harmless young fellow of nineteen whom I've met through the MxO. Plus, he's in another part of the country and he's with someone closer to his age. Mind you, I've decided that marriage is out of the question for me, but... well, I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I'd like to just once... be with someone. Just once and be done with it, to see what all the fuss is about. The best I can do right now is curse my physical nature and anticipate going through menopause when I will finally be rid of this burden.

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I think most women go through something like this (I know I do); in my opinion, it's an after-effect of evolution (going through "heat" at cycles). And, you're at the age where women are, apparently, the most mentally/physically 'mature'. I read something like, a female has the same amount of hormones at age 30 that a male does at 15. We just age differently. I know they have hormone suppressants (although I know you're opposed to taking pills) if it gets to be too bad- I personally wouldn't see anything wrong with taking them, since you have a legitimate gripe (as opposed to, "My eight-year-old is acting like an eight-year-old.")
Thank you for talking to me the other night, I really needed the release and appreciated it. And remember how you were talking about "Michael Moore fanbrats"? Turns out the lead suspects are...members of the National Health Service.
~Ruby