MxO-related angst
Jul. 13th, 2007 02:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matrixrefugeeThe interesting news: The Truce between Zion and the Machines has broken and all hell is breaking loose.
The bad news: this couldn't come at a worse time for me, since I'm so emotionally drained. I barely have the strength to keep my head up in real life, how can I handle the pressures ingame? I've asked for suggestions from the people who know me, and the general consensus is I should take a break for a while, at least till this spell of depression passes. One or two people have, unfortunately, said I should delete my character and close my account. I just wish they could understand -- no, I wish they could *KNOW* how that feels when they tell me that. I've had this little girl in my head or I've been in her head for so long, I feel that to take such drastic action would be to kill my own brain-child or worse, to kill some tiny part of me. I can't help feeling that if I did take this course of action, it would in some way make it easier for me to cancel my life account or to delete myself, as it were.
I wish I weren't so damn sensitive... or that I lived in the early 19th Century when the Romantic Era was at its height, and people would just credit these feeling to my being creative. Although, if I really *had* been born in the 19th Century, I'd have to put up with their ridiculously narrow views about women.
The bad news: this couldn't come at a worse time for me, since I'm so emotionally drained. I barely have the strength to keep my head up in real life, how can I handle the pressures ingame? I've asked for suggestions from the people who know me, and the general consensus is I should take a break for a while, at least till this spell of depression passes. One or two people have, unfortunately, said I should delete my character and close my account. I just wish they could understand -- no, I wish they could *KNOW* how that feels when they tell me that. I've had this little girl in my head or I've been in her head for so long, I feel that to take such drastic action would be to kill my own brain-child or worse, to kill some tiny part of me. I can't help feeling that if I did take this course of action, it would in some way make it easier for me to cancel my life account or to delete myself, as it were.
I wish I weren't so damn sensitive... or that I lived in the early 19th Century when the Romantic Era was at its height, and people would just credit these feeling to my being creative. Although, if I really *had* been born in the 19th Century, I'd have to put up with their ridiculously narrow views about women.