Sorry for the outburst

[matrixrefugee]

... I just want everyone who's posted their condolences (or who have been quietly holding them in their hearts) that your words and thoughts and feelings really do help... I'm just not in a good place right now and I don't feel like I'll ever be out of it again. I feel like a part of my world ended with Merry and I doubt even adopting a new parakeet would help bring it back. I wish I could rewind this entire week and have it go better...