Going away on a religious retreat tomorrow

. . . But I'm feeling so emotionally worthless that I'm doubting how much good it will do and I'm debating just walking off into the woods behind the retreat house and waiting for a bear or a lynx or a coyote to come along and kill me. I just feel like the most useless person alive, like I exist only for other people to beat up on. I won't go on since this is going to be my last entry for a few days and I don't want to go away on a down note, so here's a cute picture of a baby budgie and it's mom: http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2375/2382658503_0094c272d1.jpg?v=0