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[matrixrefugee]

I sometimes wonder why I bother to make friends or even try to. Seems like whenever I manage to find a group of people I feel comfortable with, circumstances conspire to cause that group to eventually part company. First my parish, now my faction on the MxO is parting its ways. I never really had much of a family aside from my parents, and I'd love to find a group that I could hang with and feel like I was part of something special, but wasn't so close-knit that it gets claustrophobic. The closest I came to that was the MxO faction and now it seems like everyone there is parting company. I honestly feel like cancelling my Internet connection and just pulling into myself, so I never have to feel the pain of seeing friends move on ever again. The psychologists can say you need nine bzillion friends to be mentally healthy, but I can't say it feels healthy to be always saying goodbye to people.

I'm just in a sad mood right now, don't mind me. I hope something happens to help me feel better. Seems like when I start to feel better something comes along to leave me feeling worse, and I honestly wish the pain would stop, because it seems like the times of happiness are a few fleeting bright spots in the middle of a lot of darkness.

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[dark-puck.livejournal.com]

Those of us from DegSep are still here. Randomly and rarely in the case of some, but we're still here.


And I still have your Christmas present(s) waiting to be mailed to you, you know.

[findingtruth.livejournal.com]

You take them all with you, everyone you've ever met and shared kindness with. Mold little clay statues of them in your mind and set them as you remember them best. In the world you only essentially have yourself as time with its ruthless waves will give then take.

But in this fashion you are never alone. You will always have them, and they will always have you. Two ships that pass in the night, the watchmen will always hold this memory and within that there is always grace amongst the sorrow.

[koemiko.livejournal.com]

It has been my experience that, no matter where you go, there will always be some people who you lose contact with. Life gets in the way, things change, and people change...

Shutting yourself off from the world will protect you from having to lose any new friends you make, but will also keep you from sharing the joys of friendship. Then again... I think everyone has times where they'd like to withdraw from people.

A buddhist friend once told me that... nothing is permanent... which is a double edged sword. While friendships or people may not last forever, neither does hurt, and sorrow.

[zeal-for-life.livejournal.com]

Don't forget there are people who care about you. You can talk to me or friend me any time.

*hugs you*

[nightofcydonia.livejournal.com]

Hmm. I came to a similer conclusion when I was about ten. I've dealt with it by not becoming too attached and viewing everyone outside my family as temporary. If I think I'll be loosing touch with them I severe any emotional bonds beforehand so it won't affect me. If I'm not going to be around someone for two or more years I don't even bother with getting attached in the first place. They're just something associated with certain situations and settings, like the furniture. Just enjoy their presence when it's there but be ready to move on. Then again, given how screwed up I am, the value of my advice is highly debateable.
~Weaver