New registers and frustration
Jan. 23rd, 2008 11:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matrixrefugeeWe got new registers installed at work as of yesterday, and thank God, they're AS-friendly: ie. the beep on the scanner is softer in tone, so it's way less hard on my hearing. Also, we got rid of the keypads for the debit card/food stamps cards, so the little tykes in the shopping carts can no longer gum the things up by pounding on the keys: we now have touch-screen keypads, which are way less eye-catching.
And it seems my body, now that it's hit age thirty in terms of biochemistry (though it insists on pretending to be in my teens still, at least in terms of appearance), has slipped into, "Hey, our biological clock is ticking: let's have a kid!" mode, while my brain is saying "Emphatically *NO*!" in boldface, 72-point type. I'm obviously ovulating, or about to, even though -- thankfully -- I'm not getting the pain that usually accompanies it; it can range from a pinch that lasts maybe a half an hour to feeling like I've been stabbed in the gut.
It's times like this when I really, really have a problem with the moral code of the Catholic Church, or the way it's been tinkered with. What's so wrong with getting married withOUT intending to have even *ONE* kid? Why do they have to put the brakes on you if you *just* want to be married to a significant other whom you love and cherish and want to have a physical relationship with, but one or both of you is just not psychologically or emotionally equipped to have even one kid without going stark raving mad or end up shaking the kid to death?!
I would like to get married to some good fellow someday, while I'm still young enough to enjoy sex, but it would not be fair to my kid to have a mother who can't stand the sound of a child crying for even a few seconds, let alone constantly. I personally think the Church needs to really listen to what women have to say, and one of those things is, "We're not all equipped to be Mrs. Cleaver on 'Leave it to Beaver'. Or whoever the mother superior was on 'The Flying Nun'."
Don't get me wrong, I love the sacraments, I love the saints, I love Jesus and Mary, I love all the traditions. It's these one-size-fits-most moral laws that are grinding my gears right now. Forgive me, God, but I can't help wishing they'd let up on childless couples and on self-pleasuring for single people who just can't find the sort of person they're looking for. I'll admit, the thought still crosses my mind to see if I can't hire a male escort, but I don't exactly have the cash or the oppurtunity for that sort of encounter. One of the reasons I support legalizing *AND* regulating prostitution: not everyone is fortunate to find that one and only, but I think everyone should be fortunate to find out, in a safe and confidential manner and place, what it feels like. I can't help wishing right now, I could quietly lay aside the stringent moral code and keep the dogma and the sacraments and the traditions.
And it seems my body, now that it's hit age thirty in terms of biochemistry (though it insists on pretending to be in my teens still, at least in terms of appearance), has slipped into, "Hey, our biological clock is ticking: let's have a kid!" mode, while my brain is saying "Emphatically *NO*!" in boldface, 72-point type. I'm obviously ovulating, or about to, even though -- thankfully -- I'm not getting the pain that usually accompanies it; it can range from a pinch that lasts maybe a half an hour to feeling like I've been stabbed in the gut.
It's times like this when I really, really have a problem with the moral code of the Catholic Church, or the way it's been tinkered with. What's so wrong with getting married withOUT intending to have even *ONE* kid? Why do they have to put the brakes on you if you *just* want to be married to a significant other whom you love and cherish and want to have a physical relationship with, but one or both of you is just not psychologically or emotionally equipped to have even one kid without going stark raving mad or end up shaking the kid to death?!
I would like to get married to some good fellow someday, while I'm still young enough to enjoy sex, but it would not be fair to my kid to have a mother who can't stand the sound of a child crying for even a few seconds, let alone constantly. I personally think the Church needs to really listen to what women have to say, and one of those things is, "We're not all equipped to be Mrs. Cleaver on 'Leave it to Beaver'. Or whoever the mother superior was on 'The Flying Nun'."
Don't get me wrong, I love the sacraments, I love the saints, I love Jesus and Mary, I love all the traditions. It's these one-size-fits-most moral laws that are grinding my gears right now. Forgive me, God, but I can't help wishing they'd let up on childless couples and on self-pleasuring for single people who just can't find the sort of person they're looking for. I'll admit, the thought still crosses my mind to see if I can't hire a male escort, but I don't exactly have the cash or the oppurtunity for that sort of encounter. One of the reasons I support legalizing *AND* regulating prostitution: not everyone is fortunate to find that one and only, but I think everyone should be fortunate to find out, in a safe and confidential manner and place, what it feels like. I can't help wishing right now, I could quietly lay aside the stringent moral code and keep the dogma and the sacraments and the traditions.
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Date: 2008-01-24 08:16 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2008-01-24 11:02 am (UTC)Madeleine Sherwood.
It's come to my attention that a lot of religion has strict rules for women. And the only religion I can think of otherwise is far too liberal for my tastes.
As for prostitution... I dunno, the male prostitutes I've known were such a high levels of asshole that I was extremely disgusted. The idea is nice, but idealistic, not realistic, from what I know...
Plus, after your first time, you feel sort of empty. For me, it was important that I knew and really cared about the person who I lost my virginity to - especially since I think a lot of girls who've lost their virginity feel that emptiness afterwards (myself included). I think knowing or liking the person you lost it to helps with that.
Of course, that doesn't exactly give you a solution, and probably seems like easy for ME to say, since I've had the experience...