Feeling very much put-upon

[matrixrefugee]

One of the reasons I was absent from here and from the Internet in general for much of last week had to do with some in-house bickering among the group I hang with in MxO. I won't go into detail about what went down, other than it had to do with ownership of a faction website. Unfortunately, I got caught in the cross-fire of the bickering and ended up having a huge panic attack. I ended up moving my crew and helping two friends move theirs once the smoke settled and the faction reorganized itself. However, there's this one guy who was in another faction I had been in, who was starting his own, which I'd toyed with the idea of joining. Now he's hounding me after I made my decision and finalized it. I'm trying to find a charitable way to tell this guy that he doesn't own me or my characters, and that I need to make the decisions *I* need to make in order to maximize my enjoyment of the game.

I swear, the psychologists who think you have to have scores of friends need to rethink their theories. The more friends you make, the more likely you are to have a crazy or two ...or ten in there, and since each of us has their own stuff to deal with, do we really need to expose ourselves to more?

I'm trying not to dwell on this. I'm trying to focus on good things like my current obsession with Su Doku puzzles (despite having number dyslexia and wierd logic, I'm impressed at how good I am at these things) or the new idea I have for an urban fantasy short-story, inspired by -- of all things -- a co-worker whose husband died in his sleep very suddenly of a heart attack seven months ago, but she's since worn out my sympathy for her because that's *ALL* she's talked about ever since. Up to and including, "I wish I could get him back", which lead me to think, 'Does she really want him back seven months after they buried him? What does she want? A zombie?'

Comments

[nightofcydonia.livejournal.com]

I have a suspicion that the whole 'need lots of friends' thing might be more of an American thing. Then again, I'm determined to dodge any and all shrinks (long story) so I'm probably not the best source of information in that department. I do know that my opinion on the matter is that people are more trouble then they're worth. I've seen plenty of 'popular' people running themselves ragged trying to keep their friends happy. I mean, what's the point (my dad, who's as much of a non-people person as me has had quite a lot to say on the subject, but as is often the case with these things, I can't actually remember anything specific *sigh*). So you're into Su Doku now? Same here (and like you, this is despite dyscalcula and a weird brain, so it's entirly possible that it may actually be because of those traits). Nice story idea by the way, good luck with it.
~Weaver

[meowen.livejournal.com]

Yay for sudoku,even though it can feel sort of pointless sometimes- but it's just so darn addictive! =D

[ellyodd.livejournal.com]

You know, number dyslexia is real. It's called dyscalculia. :)

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

Hee, I knew that, I just tend to use the phrase, since most people are clueless about the word "dyscalculia".