Alone Again, Naturally
Oct. 30th, 2004 12:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I know I'm supposed to be unique, that there's no one else in the world like me, but do I constantly have to feel like I'm the only thinking "Matrix" fan, the only female with Atypical Asperger's Syndrome, the only Republican, the only virgin in her late twenties who's never even been kissed on the mouth, the only devout Catholic, the only person who thinks "The Da Vinci Code" blew chunks, the only female who never, ever wears whale/pig/cow by-products (ie. make-up), etc.?
Why do I have to be surrounded by people who seem to have no clue what it's like to feel like you're always alone? Why do I have to be stuck with a job full of stupid high school kids who ignore me just because I'm ten years older than they are and I didn't go to Tewksbury High?! It's times like this I wish my mother *had* been able to send me to school, so I could have met someone there, instead of being closer to thirty than these kids are to twenty, and still a virgin, still never been kissed, still alone on a Saturday or Sunday night... And the one guy that I get interested in already has someone... probably a girl with a cup-size I can only dream about.
Granted, I'm perfectly okay being the semi-hermit that I am. I don't mind being solitary as I write. But why do I have to be so different? Or rather, why do the differences I have seem to be so unpopular? Or at least not well-accepted?
I'm not making any sense, I know. I'm sorry I wasted your time...
If there's any occultists who are looking for a virgin to sacrifice on Halloween, look me up.
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Date: 2004-10-30 05:25 pm (UTC)Remember those high schoolers are talking about relationships that normally SOUND way better than they are..they may not even exist. I've generally found that ppl that have to run their mouths off about relationships normally aren't enjoying very good ones. and as for high school relationships, trust me, you didn't miss much..and i knew a lot of kids that went to school that didn't have dates until they were much older.
Plus, i bet there are people out there with issues similar to yours. I think we've all felt all alone at times.
Hang in there, hon.