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matrixrefugeeI'm feeling very tense... I've got an appointment with a neurologist at Lahey Clinic tomorrow, about whatever the heck is going on in my head. Frankly, I'm scared. I've done neurological evals before, and I find them boring and demeaning to my intellect. Just scan my brain or tape electrodes all over my noggin and hook me up to an EEG, for God's sake. No more asking me to list as many words starting with the letter of choice, or having me read jejune symbols off 8-x-11 inch cards, s'il voux plait.
My worst fear is completely irrational: I'm afraid they won't find anything wrong, or nothing that they can put a name to, even though I'm going through all this gack and to me at least, there's obviously something flukey going on upstairs. I've waited 15 years to finally find out what's wrong with me, and I'm afraid I never will find out, that I'll just go through life falling between the cracks in the system, and no one will care to help me because I've got the "no-name condition".
My worst fear is completely irrational: I'm afraid they won't find anything wrong, or nothing that they can put a name to, even though I'm going through all this gack and to me at least, there's obviously something flukey going on upstairs. I've waited 15 years to finally find out what's wrong with me, and I'm afraid I never will find out, that I'll just go through life falling between the cracks in the system, and no one will care to help me because I've got the "no-name condition".
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Date: 2005-01-24 07:30 am (UTC)Sometimes scans don't pic up chemical problems, which might be the case with you. If your EEG turns out normal, that doesn't mean you don't have a problem that can be diagnosed and treated. Keep pushing! You'll get there! :-) And update us tomorrow!