You and Me and "Matrix" RPGs

[matrixrefugee]

I don't know what it is that hates me, but I can't seem to fit into any "Matrix" RPGs out there, or they just don't work out for some odd reason.

--The one on "zionmainframe.net": I posted a character sheet, the GM said it looked good, they said they'd get back to me. Two months go by, and I don't hear boo about it. Then, I discover that they deleted the messageboard for the RPG.

--The Official MORPG: Costs $10 a month to play. I don't have that kind of cash, plus the art design looks tacky (On showing her some of the screenshots, an artist friend of mine said it looked like Skank Night at a sleazy bar).

--Now my tentative place in Laurie's RPG is falling to pieces. I thought I was doing well with that, but the more I think about it, the more I realize I'm playing far too sensitively, and there ain't much room for sensitivity in this universe.

Maybe I should just leave the fandom or not be so open about it, because right now I'm wishing I'd taken the damn blue pill. This is why I took the name "Matrix Refugee", or why that name found me, as it were. My first choice was "Matrix Rebel", but I know that I'm too gentle-hearted to make a true Rebel, which was when my current handle came to me.

Comments

[veilofveronica.livejournal.com]

Hun, I think you are too hard on yourself. Really. I honestly don't know anything about RPG's, but I do know that internet connections of any quality with others are difficult to maintain/find. It's the sites that maybe aren't working for you, not you for the sites. You're a fab person give yourself some credit!
Luv
moi

[veilofveronica.livejournal.com]

ps. have to say i like your icon! I was just in Cancun, Mexico and they have (understandably) Our Lady of Guadalupe pictures, statues, etc everywhere.

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

It's my mom's favorite painting of the Blessed Mother Mary, and it's one of my favorites, too. So, I thought I should show her some honor and make an icon of her image. Glad you like it!