You and Me and "Matrix" RPGs
Feb. 27th, 2005 11:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matrixrefugeeI don't know what it is that hates me, but I can't seem to fit into any "Matrix" RPGs out there, or they just don't work out for some odd reason.
--The one on "zionmainframe.net": I posted a character sheet, the GM said it looked good, they said they'd get back to me. Two months go by, and I don't hear boo about it. Then, I discover that they deleted the messageboard for the RPG.
--The Official MORPG: Costs $10 a month to play. I don't have that kind of cash, plus the art design looks tacky (On showing her some of the screenshots, an artist friend of mine said it looked like Skank Night at a sleazy bar).
--Now my tentative place in Laurie's RPG is falling to pieces. I thought I was doing well with that, but the more I think about it, the more I realize I'm playing far too sensitively, and there ain't much room for sensitivity in this universe.
Maybe I should just leave the fandom or not be so open about it, because right now I'm wishing I'd taken the damn blue pill. This is why I took the name "Matrix Refugee", or why that name found me, as it were. My first choice was "Matrix Rebel", but I know that I'm too gentle-hearted to make a true Rebel, which was when my current handle came to me.
--The one on "zionmainframe.net": I posted a character sheet, the GM said it looked good, they said they'd get back to me. Two months go by, and I don't hear boo about it. Then, I discover that they deleted the messageboard for the RPG.
--The Official MORPG: Costs $10 a month to play. I don't have that kind of cash, plus the art design looks tacky (On showing her some of the screenshots, an artist friend of mine said it looked like Skank Night at a sleazy bar).
--Now my tentative place in Laurie's RPG is falling to pieces. I thought I was doing well with that, but the more I think about it, the more I realize I'm playing far too sensitively, and there ain't much room for sensitivity in this universe.
Maybe I should just leave the fandom or not be so open about it, because right now I'm wishing I'd taken the damn blue pill. This is why I took the name "Matrix Refugee", or why that name found me, as it were. My first choice was "Matrix Rebel", but I know that I'm too gentle-hearted to make a true Rebel, which was when my current handle came to me.
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Date: 2005-03-01 06:01 am (UTC)