I can't keep this up any longer....

[matrixrefugee]

I can't get up the courage to send anything out to get it published. Even my fanfics are crud. ((To the bitch who flamed the "Sandman" fic I posted on ff.n: It's a prose poem; it doesn't have to have a plot. If you can't accept that kind of writing, whatever you do, *DON'T* read Brian Aldiss, because none of his short stories have plots, either.)) I can't keep working at this dead-end job among all these stupid, uncaring, idiotic, childish, selfish adult brats. I can't get the hell started with anyone because I'm cursed with the shadows of a bad relationship and because I simply don't fit the stupid standards of "what men really want".

((Edited twice to get rid of angst excess))

Comments

[yep-its-just-me.livejournal.com]

Am I hearing a *don't like, don't read* from a GAFF member? (please, see my grin here.)

Your fanfics probably aren't crud, and if I actually wrote something I could get beta'd, you'd bet I'd send it out to a publisher. It may be worth a rejection, but it doesn't cost anything. I'm sure I wouldn't have a prayer, but ... what the hell. It's probably better odds than winning the lottery with all of the trash out there.

Also, screw the bitch. You don't need to be hung up on that shit.

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

Funny you should mention "don't like, don't read", since I used to put that on the fics I wrote when I started writing fanfiction (which was only about three years ago...); I've learned a lot since then. I'll give the reviewer in question points for being polite in the way they expressed their review, but it did little to mask the condescention and lack of forbearance.

I'll get over it: in the meantime, thanks for the hand up.

[yep-its-just-me.livejournal.com]

This part of me says... I probably should have taken one look at your icon and controlled my language. Sorry about that. I just get excited, and even my mother is appalled occasionally. I have no idea where I got that.

[yep-its-just-me.livejournal.com]

Uh... it's from my dad. UGH.

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

Heh, don't sweat it: I may be a (for the most part, I hope) spiritually-minded person, but I've let loose with some doozies when I was really... mad.

[(Anonymous)]

I didn´t have the chance to read your Sandman fanfic yet, but I can guarantee that it *isn't* crude - none of your fics are! You are one of the best writers that I ever read in the whole net!
Don't let a flame put your wonderful work down!

Joshua
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[crowdog66.livejournal.com]

To the bitch: :-P

To you: ^_^ and ***hugs!*** (wish I was there to give you one that wasn't virtual)

I know the days are dark, but hang in there! Your writing is excellent. Never doubt it. (I know you will anyway, we all do when it comes to our own stuff, but it had to be said.)

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the virtual hug and the very helpful words of encouragement! (Maybe some day, I'll be able to return it for real...) I was talking with Puck about this incident last night and she helped me through it: I think she even said she was considering sending that nasty reviewer an email that was as condescending as that person's review... I'm very blessed to have friends like you and her!